Initiation ceremony tonight. I cannot wait! I'm dressed to the nines and pulsing with raw energy. Its not my initiation, but this feels so damn good! It's good to be wearing leather again. Garter belt, stockings, 6 inch heels and a white minidress I was given after my own initiation...*smiles wistfully* Stands for being reborn. Tis what I felt, too, that day. Not so much now, However, I digress... And I proudly announce that I have been given the honour of being Josh's second tonight, in order to initiate L, his new girlfriend. I've written a short speech which I shall be altering on the train journey between here and the club.
Josh. So much to say, but actions do speak luoder than words *grin* So lets get this little speech over with ASAP and let the fun begin, shall we? Oh baby you've come such a long way..darling, darling boy. You've grown up so fast...so soon, Too soon, even. I feel so..overwhelmed. May I say i'm absolutely honoured and so proud to be your second tonight. I assure you I shall do my best in assisting your lucid pleasures, after all, this is a night for all your fantasies to come true. L, sweetheart. What can I say except welcome to the club. I've known you not too long, but you've proven yourself to be extremely, extremely strong in the face of what we have to show to you. This is a place where you're allowed to be yourself. Reveal yourself. To Josh, to others, if he lets you *grin* I'm very, very happy. Words fail me. To Josh, To L. May all your dreams come true.
Needs a helluva lotta work. Hm. Danni'll be starting the proceedings, followed by other speeches. I want to go last. I need this down on a paper napkin. Such a happy day, I'm already in tears. Got to run! Can't be late! Josh, L, This better be good tonight. I need a pick me up paddle meself. Cheers mi doves.
To whom it may concern: I sometimes feel like we've reached a parting of ways. One heading to the frigid Antarctic and the other to sunny climes. Pretty much polar opposites. Neither apologies or placatents seem to work, and only induce a state of fury (and I am obviously the ass in assuming so, nevertheless..), defense or helplessness and despair at my end. What path did I go down on and clear but the truth, and when one follows down truth's path one must be aware of the pain. I scout(ed) ahead, and cleared truth's path with my own words, yet they hurt you as much if not less, as was my mistaken intention(s). Both truths, I won't lie, but if the whole truth is what you want, and will accept without fear...so be it. Walk beside me. And don't balk. Look at the grooves that tears and blood have engraved on my cheeks, and don't balk. To put it blandly, I assumed (that word again) that to take it like a vodka shot would kill you, if not hurt you. Dilute, and sip. Little sips. Guess I was wrong, or am I right? Or are both drinks out of the question? Misery absolutely loves company, but not when company competes to see who's more miserable. Again, I apologise, and this time I myself know the answer why. The answer is, because of everything. Don't question my everything. My world is still small, and my everything within it is smaller. So, I apologise for everything said and done, with and without reason. Speak. Open up. Ask questions and tell me why you wish to know them. I sometimes feel like I should backtrack, turn back time, wander down a path of lies, yet I think again, and what difference does it make. Truths hurt, Lies hurt, what now? Its no-mans land and I'm surrounded on every side. The poor, poor bunny. Shoot, already. I've had enough.
Well, that was stream of consciousness-y. I feel so much better, I think.
Drained. Feeling like a colander/sieve. Josh, L darling, this better be good. You're not the only two seeking high pleasure. I need a mental one meself. Sigh. Gnite All.
Reply to: VodkaB
Wonderful! Everybody should have mental o's everyday!
posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 01.17.05 (5:23 am)
Reply to: jennirae269
*laugh* My sentiments exactly ;)
posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 01.17.05 (10:17 am)
*hugz*
posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 01.17.05 (1:11 pm)
Reply to: newbie
hugs :) Just what I need. Ta e.
posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 01.17.05 (2:11 pm)
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and she's always gone too long
Anytime she goes away
Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gonna stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away
And I know, I know...
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away
.....she/it/he never leaves... for the fire Always burns withing you keeping you warm. Coz that fire is sustained by her/it/him... that warmth is love
posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 01.17.05 (11:58 pm)
