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Painful Insight
09.23.04 (1:24 am)   [edit]
It is saddening, to walk into an empty house bereft of emotion, only to inflict upon it your own.
To lean against a heavy door, as heavy as heart itself, and to hear its closing echo reverberate right through your soul.
I walk home. Everyday I look for one bird, one butterfly. Perhaps its a game I play, perhaps it runs deeper than my little, thoughtful strolls.
Everyday I see one white gull fly over the river on the way home. Perhaps it has a nest, somewhere, or maybe it roosts somewhere else. I wouldn't know..Its never spoken to me.
The butterfly. Now, those are special. Its lighthearted winged gait. It's drunken dance. Perched delicately above the stairs, on the clear glass roof above my head. They aren't my butterflies, but something about them lifts my spirit. I pray to see one everyday. My personal flowers.
A big black one, with blue markings.
The fairy green one with its slender white body.
Sometimes, the monarch himself deems me a visit.
Today I stepped around a butterfly. Its wings pitifully torn...Buttery thin. Yellow and orange markings as I've never seen before. And just to the side of it, My black and blue feathery butterfly. Isn't black the colour to mourn the most beautiful of things?
Weight often presses itself onto my shoulders. Noise often scares my heart. There are times I can be...wish to be alone.
But not always.
It is saddening, to walk into an empty house bereft of emotion, only to inflict upon it your own.
 


posted by: rinna (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (1:32 am)

loneliness and hindsight are so detrimental to our personal growth, but it still fucking kills to know it. it's the difference between ignoring it and acknowledging it that sets people apart. :)
x r x



posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (1:32 am)

Empty Houses

No matter what you fill them with, memories, emotions, pink walpapers, loved one, hatred... no matter what...

they would always remain empty.

Which is why, in life we seek for Homes.

Some Where you Belong.....

There always is such a place.... it just takes time to look for it.


- From the city of lights

ps Dreaming on flight is a goodway to reduce jetlag. U knoe whats funny... there was no jet.. no lag. It was an airbus on time ;)



posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (1:37 am)

Reply to: rinna
it does...
Sometimes...our ignorance does lead to acknowledgement...and only then do we wish to escape.



posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (1:38 am)

Reply to: newbie
Home is where the heart beats, and does not echo inside yourself, but brings to life every person/place that hears it.
:) Good. Now eat and rest properli.



posted by: me (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (3:06 am)

with me around you aren't ever alone, even if you are alone



posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (5:00 am)

*jumpz up n down waving itz hand*

m azzo m azzo



posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (9:48 am)

Oh Hell, Stuff it

Shall We Dance :P

http://dietpepsi.20megsfree.com/no_no_baby.swf

*grabz u'da handz*

Shake Dat Ass, da hip, da hip



posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (7:24 pm)

Reply to: me
Thank You =)



posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (7:25 pm)

Reply to: newbie
Thank you =)
Reply to newbie
Dance? Me? *laugh* hardly ;p
will check de link and report baq



posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (7:39 pm)

Howz it dat u alwayz know its me?

i mean newbie cud be anyone, right :P

Are u eating properly, its lunch time there *BailyFrowny goes here*



posted by: VodkaB (reply)
post date: 09.23.04 (8:12 pm)

Reply to: newbie
cos I just know. :P hehe. huggie. Yah I had 2 double chocolate cookies. :P wan? *feeds u cookie*

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