In other news, I feel like shite. I'm two days early and i've been curled up in a fetal position four hours after my usual wake-up time. sigh. :(
Yesterday night I did a bad thing. I took my blunt knife and plunged it into somebodys heart. Again. Someone tell me that wasn't a nice thing to do...right? But honestly, it was self-defensive. No matter how much I warned that particular heart to lay off, Nooo, it didn't listen. Look where that got you now. Tsk. I've no sympathy on account of PMS but I'm sure I'l feel guilty enough to apologise a week or so from now.
So now that my guilt conscience has nicely piled its guilt into this little post, I can continue. No, wait. I can't. Okay, I feel horrible. I owe you an apology but I'm too proud to give it to you. I once referred to you in a post back in June. Yeah, The one titled Sex In The Shower. The PS part was for you. Tsk, Ignore the title, hun. Here's a recap.
PS: Please chirrup...You know who you are and i'm not going to mention your name, I know you think the surgery was a waste of money but it meant something to me, regardless the scars that follow. Expensive, and I ain't getting no refund *grin* so i might as well finish off the remaining sessions, right? So, if you can't handle it or understand my reasons for doing so, well, thats life hunnie, Like it or slit your wrists. And no, i'm not regretting my decision. It was a small expense. I have enough for my studies and everything else. Stop fussing. And please, please, the next time you call (if ever) listen to my side of the tale too, without simply launching into what you think is wrong with me. Finally, i'm not, as you say, unhappy. I am happy. i take pleasure in the little things and just because I can't express my happiness the serious way you do does not mean I'm unhappy. I'm fine exactly the way I am. I'm absolutely fine.
There. I warned you back then, And i'm sorry I had to break it to you yesterday night, but some things are not meant to be. You left me asleep in my pile of guilt. Seven words and the 3 minute silence that followed was all it took to sink in. I hope you get the point now. I Hope you do, cos this isn't the first time, And if I have to do what I just did again, I will. So Sue Me.
Rotten. Sigh