My cousin wedded yesterday night. I was sitting down near the door that would lead him to his new life. I was watching the bride and groom...she was decked up in a 18kg dress, him in a 12kg suit. Tsk. They were left to sit on a couch and take photos with everyone (over 800 people) who attended the wedding. Both had been decked up at 2pm, and only after the ceremony were allowed to eat, which ended at 4am. Anyway, we went back to the groom's house afterwards. The bride was busy swapping handfuls of rice with whoever sat down next to her (A custom) and well, the groom was near the door. I was watching him closely. I'd never seen him that serious before... I had this switch I havn't had since I was 12 or so. I literally entered my cousin's mind and looked out through his eyes. I used to be able to read people accurately since i was a child, probably because I spent a lot of time watching and listening. Anyway, What I saw (or rather, felt) saddened me. I was looking through a heavy heart. One last look around what was once called home before moving into their own. I felt deep confusion and daze. Several times that night I had already seen people pat him on the back and ask him if being actually married had 'sunk in'. He's always rather dazed but this time it was so...real. Those very eyes clouded with a veil of tears and I was brought back by a tap on my shoulder. What I saw... Sigh. Poor guy. He just wasn't ready yet. It reminded me of a poem. I've dedicated this one for you, Sunil, even though you will not see this. Congratulations and God bless you and Larisha. Always..
[u]Is It For Now Or For Always[/u]
Is it for now or for always, The world hangs on a stalk? Is it a trick or a trysting-place, The woods we have found to walk?
Is it a mirage or miracle, Your lips that lift at mine: And the suns like a juggler's juggling-balls, Are they a sham or a sign?
Shine out, my sudden angel, Break fear with breast and brow, I take you now and for always, For always is always now.
-Philip Larkin
posted by: DD-MM-YY (reply)
post date: 06.24.04 (8:37 pm)
'For always is always now'...... so much hidden between so few words.. beautiful.
To Sunil & Larisha... may both of you wake up every single day in each others arms and look into each others eyes.. and smile within.. reminding yourselves
that its the 'US' factor that makes life bearable.
We want to see u're dance picz :) with lil kiddies hanging all over you.
